Returning

I have returned to cloth. I have had enough of the relaxing effects of crochet. They have done me a world of good. However, I have realized there is an adverse affect. My mind becomes dormant. I stop being that questioning, imaginative person that I love being. The cloth, on the other hand makes me search, question, wander, and some times loose my sense of reality. 

It is when I get lost within the fibers that I thrive. 

So after a few slices of my banana almond bread smeared with nutella and the obligatory coffee, I went upstairs to my space.

Straightened things up after a messy weekend. And looked for my forgetten self. Bits an pieces were hidding underneath bags and dust. And among them I found my first large cloth, Monster City. Something I never got around finishing . Now that I looked at it again, with a different mind set all I can see is anger, and fear. I could not continue with it. 

I took it apart. There were still pieces that I can use later. And the girl, well, how could I get rid of her. She is a reminder of my battle, that dark period. She needs some light and ease after such a struggle. 

So I sit here, surrounded by cloth and it feels so good. I feel eager to see what can come out of my happiness.

Bon iver - skinny love

 

Comments

[deanna7trees]

i never thought of it that way before, but you are right. the crocheting is a restful, easy activity whereas the cloth makes you think and dream and imagine.

[jude]

well welcome back....

[Doris]

I crochet when I need a pause and got stuck with another work, when my hands are busy with crocheting I think it over and often I find a solution. I dont´t like just to sit and think about a problem, I need the moving of my hands. And I like the result when I work with wool.
Your cloth is very impressing, I understand that there are memories which belong to another time but perhaps they can be transformed. Sometimes a new view on old things are very important for the future.
You are on your way!

[Wooni]

for something so thin it can sometimes feel like an ocean

[Wooni]

thank you kindly :)

[Wooni]

I am planning on using the monster and the girl and maybe other elements in other things. They will not go to waste. Maybe from now on I will also use crochet as a pausing moment. I usually use music as a medium to clear my head and at other times I draw when I need to think.